Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Crib and Other Thoughts

Well, last night Michael and I went to Burlington to buy a travel system...
We didn't get one.

BECAUSE both a travel system and a crib wouldn't fit in our car... and we found a sweet deal on a crib! So, we ended up buying a crib, and will be going back tonight for the travel system.

It was the last crib in stock because it was on sale for only 99 dollars! I've been looking on KSL for about 4 months now waiting for something for a crib to come up, but most of the people are still trying to get at LEAST 150 for their cribs, and the ones that are posted for 30 dollars are the ones that you're technically not allowed to sell on KSL because they have been recalled (the drop down side ones). SOOOOO... Michael and I had NO INTENTION what so ever to get a crib anytime soon... we were going to wait until we HAD to get one... (so after the baby was getting too big for the bassinet), but we couldn't pass up this deal. Especially since it's a cute crib! and it converts into a toddler bed and a full bed... which is kind of nice.

Anyway, it was the absolute last one in stock... so we decided we'd get it because we knew we wouldn't find a better deal - especially not for a new crib.

So we bought a crib.
And the box is sitting in our living room.
Oh, and... the crib box didn't even fit in our car... that was fun. haha
Some nice man in the parking lot helped us get it home though... rather than us having to take it out of the box in order to get it to fit. Thank you nice man!

Being in Utah is so nice sometimes - there is NO WAY that would have happened other places. Especially since he was only in town for a business trip! He was about 2 minutes from his hotel, but drove 15 minutes (one direction) out of his way to help us! I just wish there was some way we could repay him.

Anyway, that's the fun exciting news. Yesterday, we got a camera and a crib for only 213 dollars! Both of them brand new and pretty high quality! We got super lucky with the Burlington sale though because it hasn't really been advertised, we just happened to show up at the right time. Yay! And the camera was quite the steal too. It's so exciting to find sweet deals!

Now, I'm even MORE excited to move this weekend! We'll have a crib to put in the baby's room! WOAH! CRAZY!

I'm excited to be a mom - on most days anyway. I'm just super nervous about it too I suppose.

Oh, that reminds me. Today we had a doctor's appointment, and everything looks good. Yay!
So, baby Emmalynn is VERY strong. The doctor was surprised at how strong she is! Haha... I KNEW IT WASN'T JUST MY IMAGINATION!
We were going to listen to her heartbeat, but instead we heard her punch/kick the doppler MANY times. He found the heartbeat, but about every 2 or 3 seconds it was interrupted by a super loud BAM because she was trying to hit it away. The doctor just said, "wow, she active! and very strong!" Funny part is... she wasn't even kicking that hard compared to usual! But, she was kicking hard enough for the doctor to see my stomach move, and for her to push his hand and the doppler away so he had to find the heart beat again. It was quite funny actually...

I really liked the doctor I saw this time, he was really nice and fun. AND he gave me candy! haha. Cute old man. :)

And as a random thought, I have decided I ABSOLUTELY HATE BRA SHOPPING NOW! YIKES!
My size... does not exist in stores... except for Nordstrom and Victoria's secret... but they don't have nursing bras. So, ordering online, I will be.
yuck. I mean, before getting pregnant, my bra size was hard enough to find, but now (now that it's gone up 2 cup sizes and not changed as far as band size goes), it is literally impossible unless I order it specially. Now, it's time to find a nursing bra that has enough support and that is comfortable. (because at this point I only have two bras that I can wear, but they still don't fit properly) I went bra shopping in January, but have continued to grow even after month four... yay. I think I am FINALLY done. ...maybe.

Any suggestions as to where to get a good nursing bra?

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Camera

Well, since Michael and I haven't had a camera in about 6 months now because it got stollen out of our LOCKED car... we finally gave in and decided to buy one.

I was looking online for sales and stuff, and we found one for 113 dollars that is usually almost 300...
So, we bought a camera. It should be in our hands in about 5-10 days! yay!

I'm excited... now I'll be able to actually take pictures of our baby when she gets here! ...and I suppose until then, we'll just have to take pictures of ourselves. :)

Friday, March 23, 2012

Thoughts on Being a Mom

You know, there are some days, where I just cannot for the life of me imagine myself as being a good mother, or being able to handle the different things that come with motherhood.
I just get really stressed about it.

But then, there are some days where I have moments where I really start to believe "I can do this". But, not only that I CAN do this, but that I can be happy doing it. I think Heavenly Father sends me those moments and thoughts to reassure me that I actually CAN do it and be happy, even though it will be/is the hardest thing I do.

Michael got a cold about a week or so ago, and I thought I was going to get away without getting it, but... I've definitely got it. But, of course, because I'm pregnant, it's MUCH worse. Especially since I can't really take medicine. I mean, I can take SOME stuff, but nothing strong enough to even make a dent in how I feel. It's... wonderful. As a result, my nose hurts from tissues attacking it every two minutes, my head hurts more than I even imagined possible (even Michael's soft whispers from four feet away hurt my head), and the acid reflux/throwing up has come back again. Excellent. Yep, I'm pretty much feeling GREAT.

But, despite all of that, I've managed to stay pretty positive (i think/hope). Although, I AM SO SICK of pregnancy hormones. It's dreadful. I don't think I've ever cried so much in my life... over things that would hardly even bother me before! It's ridiculous. I can't wait to be back to 'normal'

Anyway, Michael and I have started reading The Hunger Games series, since neither of us had read it before. Yesterday, when we went home for the day, we were about 30 pages into the second book. This morning when we woke up, we were about 30 pages from the end. I couldn't sleep last night (because of the cold/headache/other stuff... I couldn't even really lay down without having to vomit), so Michael stayed up and read to me until I finally fell asleep around 1. Poor guy :(

He's got to be exhausted. And I can't even imagine how his throat feels. I've got to make it up to him somehow...

But, from about 5-6 I had an interesting dream. I dreamed about Emmalynn. We were in the hospital and she was about 2 months old. I was in a room full of screaming babies that were being held by nurses trying to console them, and I knew one of them was Emmalynn. So, I frantically looked around for her, and finally I saw her - pretty blue eyes and golden blonde baby hair. As soon as I saw her I had no doubt it was her. The nurse handed her to me, and she stopped screaming. It was the first time I had ever held her (I don't know why...The alarm went off before I could figure it out). But, I woke up calmer than I ever had before in my life. I woke up knowing things would be okay, and that I would be able to soothe and take care of my little girl.

I know pregnant ladies have all sorts of dreams, but this one was different. It was like a message from her, or Heavenly Father, or SOMEONE. I don't know. It was just really reassuring because I've been freaking out the last two weeks or so. Any time I am left alone to my thoughts, I worry about how we will manage - about how I will manage and get really worked up about it and just find myself sobbing.

Despite being super sick, I've found I've been a lot more patient today. I mean, I'm pretty patient usually, but today I've been able to just relax a little bit and try to help my body feel better, rather than freak out about different things.

I'm not quite sure how to hang on to this feeling, but I've got to try. I feel so bad for Michael. I can't even imagine the roles being reversed. How would I handle him crying over the dumbest little things? But not just crying, sobbing - just a complete and total wreck. He's been so good about it though, and I just wish there was a way I could make sure it's not his fault I'm sad all the time...

Anyway, we move in less than Ten Days! (Conference Weekend)

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Cloth Diapers V.S. Disposable Diapers?

So, Michael and I have talked about using cloth diapers instead of disposable ones.

Cloth diapers are a lot of money in the beginning, but they have all-in-one, one-size diapers now, so they will last until the child is about ready to potty train/potty trained. So, in the long run, they would be cheaper (by about 1000-1500 dollars).

But, is it worth the extra laundry? The extra time spent washing/folding them? I'm not sure. Then, there is also the initial cost (about 400-500 dollars). It's kinda hard just to pull that out of no where when you haven't necessarily been planning on it (we could do it, but again, is it worth it?).

And then there's the question, how many do we get? I mean, how often do I want to do diaper laundry? I can't let it sit around for days (GROSS), but I don't want to have to do laundry EVERY day. With disposable diapers, you don't have to worry about not getting enough, you can always go and get another box of the right size. I mean, you can always order/buy more cloth diapers, but it's cheaper if you buy them 6-36 at a time.

I just don't know. Any thoughts?

I know no one in my immediate family has done cloth diapers (or I'm pretty sure anyway), but why not? I know my mom used cloth diapers and liked them, and they have even come a long way since she used them.

I'd like some opinions please!

Monday, March 19, 2012

The Biggest Clove of Garlic, EVER

So, last night Michael was making dinner, and we needed a clove of garlic, so we got one... it took us a while to actually decide that it was actually only ONE clove of garlic.

Anyway, it was a HUGE clove.
To prove it, we took pictures.



Packing

Yay for packing! haha

Now that I know where we will be living, I've actually had a lot of 'energy' to pack. I'm just so excited to be leaving our current apartment (although, not so much our landlord - she's been AMAZING). On Friday/Saturday Michael cleaned a bit, and we successfully packed up almost EVERYTHING that can be packed... yay! Although, now I'm still restless about it... I just want to keep packing... I want to pack up the car and start taking stuff over to the new place, but I can't because... well, it's not ours yet! =/
Just two more weeks! yay!

Anyway, that's that...
we had some people come look at our apartment this past weekend too (...while we were packing haha), so hopefully (for our landlord's sake) it gets filled pretty soon. We like her so much, and leaving her is seriously the HARDEST part about leaving the apartment. I mean, it was a good apartment for us at the time, but it's just not ideal any more. (No more mice there!)

Michael is putting a fence in before we leave, and we hung up a cabinet Saturday. So we're fixing it up a little bit before we leave (we didn't pay for the stuff... our landlord did), so it'll be a little nicer for the next couple/people that live there. (Hopefully they'll have a place to put their stuff! cause we didn't really have enough storage for us... the ONLY closet/storage there was when we got there was the bedroom closet... which isn't very big).

Anyway, long story short, I can't wait to move. Our contracts overlap a little bit (New one starts April 1st, old one ends April 13th), so we're planning on taking car loads over at a time and unpacking those/finding a place for things, then bringing another car load over. Then, we'll only have to bother people to help us for like an hour with the big stuff. We're hoping we'll be able to find someone in this ward or our new ward that has a pick up truck that would be willing to help us move rather than renting a U-haul for just our bed, a dresser, a comfy chair, and a small-ish cabinet. That's really all we'll need to bring over that won't fit in our car (everything else we have has fit in our car...including the dish washer). Our new place has a dish washer though, so we're actually trading with some of our friends. We're getting their window a/c unit for our dish washer! Yay! A/C.
Although, since it is a basement apartment, we're hoping we won't have to use it very much (we'll just open the windows at night). But, I guess we'll see!

Anyway, that's my life currently. Super exciting, I know. haha

Friday, March 16, 2012

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Apartment Search Update

Well, our fostering will be coming to an end come mid-April/May. :(

Our apartment right now is so old and dusty (we've done everything! we have an air purifier and everything), that we've decided it's definitely not ideal to bring a newborn into it. We thought for a little while about moving within the apartment complex, but we decided to look around to see what we could find. We pay about 100-120 in utilities each month (because we don't have very good windows/insulation/anything when it comes to keeping heat in), so we were paying about 550 a month total.

So, for the past month or so I've been checking online on various websites to see what I could find that was opening up in April/May, but wasn't having very much luck. There were a bunch of listings for apartment complexes (which are WAY OVERPRICED in Provo), but not much for the smaller apartment complexes/basement apartments/etc. But, last weekend a few things started showing up, so I decided it was time to start looking multiple times a day for good deals. Michael and I have looked at/toured a ton of apartments. Super fun. We looked at a one bedroom that was 655 a month, but decided it wasn't worth the extra money for a one bedroom. We looked at a few more that were in that price range (which is pretty typical for Provo these days... even on the 'lower' side of typical), and then I FOUND A TWO BEDROOM APARTMENT FOR 600 + Electricity and Garbage!!! (AKA: SWEET DEAL)

So, of course, I made Michael call right away to set up a time to look at the apartment. We got to look at it Monday evening. It is a basement apartment (the landlord's daughter lives upstairs), that has been COMPLETELY gutted and remodeled and rebuilt to state standards (there are even fire escape windows!). So, not only was it a sweet deal just based on it being a two bedroom apartment, but it also is a sweet deal for quality! The kitchen is BEAUTIFUL! I can't wait to actually have a kitchen again! (ours right now... is about the size of a closet...literally)

So, now all we have to do is give them our deposit (to make sure we get the place because other people are looking at it and we're terrified they'll snatch it before us!)

Anyway, that's the story. YIKES!

Here is the KSL ad for it, but the pictures do NOT do it justice at all. (the bathroom is HUGE!)
Alrighty, that's it.. we're moving! YIKES! (April is totally sneaking up on me...I do NOT want to pack, but I suppose it's time to start)

http://www.ksl.com/index.php?sid=17403849&nid=651&ad=20630


Oh yeah, and it's a house that is three blocks away from Joe and Tina's place. So, it's in a pretty nice neighborhood :)
Oh, and we're in different wards... heh, don't you love Utah?
I'm excited to have a front yard and backyard that we can use!

Monday, March 12, 2012

Beautiful Weather!

It has been absolutely beautiful all weekend and I am soooo pleased that the nice weather has continued into the week! Yesterday, Michael and I went on TWO walks. (One was super short, but the other one was a longer one). The weather was just too nice to pass up! And besides, what else is there to do on a Sunday after church with a puppy? I guess we could stay inside, but that just is an unbearable thought when the weather is 60-64 and SUNNY!

Anyway, so we've been watching a 7 week old puppy for a week now, and he is just SO adorable. It's actually pretty sad... his litter was being sold for 800 dollars a dog, and he didn't get sold. As a puppy, you aren't supposed to be separated from your littler and mother until at LEAST 8-9 weeks (8 weeks if it's a smarter breed). And so, his whole litter was gone at 6 weeks, and he was taken to a shelter! YIKES! talk about rough! So, the shelter we've been fostering for asked us if we would just spend time with him and love him and let him be a puppy and try to nurse him back to health a little bit for a week until he was old enough to put up for adoption. He's still only about 2 pounds, but he's gotten bigger a little bit, and isn't QUITE as clumsy (he's still got the puppy awkwardness though).

Anyway, it's bad, because I'm totally in love with him! He's the cutest tiniest little thing! And now, we've got him trained up pretty good (he's sleeping through the night! at only 8 weeks!), so he's even more fun! Anyway, I'll have to post some pictures of him later :)

AND I've been feeling a bit better the past two days (I cut dairy out of my diet because Michael realized it was always worse heart burn/acid reflux after I had dairy). So, I guess it looks like it's back to almond milk and soy milk for me. =\
If there was one thing I was liking about being pregnant, it was being able to have cow milk again! But, I guess my lactose intolerantness has decided to come back, but in a different way. :sigh:

I'll just have to figure out how to adjust my diet a bit more so I still get enough calcium and other yummy stuff that I got from milk! yay.

Anyway, that's about it. I'm just glad to finally be feeling a little bit better and I'm super glad the weather is starting to get nice! Happy days!

Oh, and Michael and I are shopping around for apartments... talk about NOT fun after the first two days... haha. But, it has to be done. We're going to look at a few this evening that look pretty promising (one is a 2 bedroom for 600 + electricity, so we're hopefully we'll be able to find something not tooo pricey! btw... 600 for an apartment is a sweet deal in provo these days).

Wish us luck!

Friday, March 9, 2012

Soooo Ready for the Weekend

I am so excited for a break. Between being sick and hurting and everything I've had to do this week I am SO DONE.

My plans for tomorrow? Sleep. Sit in bed/on the couch and watch movies while Michael does some programming or cleans or entertains himself somehow. Sleep some more. and Sleep some more.

I am emotionally drained and just cannot find the strength to do anything else. MAYBE I'll got on a walk with Michael tomorrow. It's SO NOT happening today (we usually walk everyday).

I am going home and climbing into bed. I don't even want to think about dinner. Maybe we'll make some more rice and quinoa to go with the left overs we have in our fridge. We've also got some chicken left over from Goodwood that needs to be eaten in the next day or so, so I guess we'll have to eat that too.

Friday is usually our shopping/errands day after work, but there is no way I'm up for anything. I'll just be glad to make it into the car and then into our house.

Why am I so exhausted? It isn't even fair. I've been eating really well (as in healthily) and sleeping pretty well (surprisingly). I just feel like it's never enough. I'm always hungry, but food hurts. I'm dehydrated, but I've tried SO HARD to drink water all day everyday.
I've had a little bit of a fever the past few days, so if it gets higher or doesn't go away then I'm going to have to get it checked out. Maybe something actually IS wrong with me? not just being pregnant. hah

Anyway, here's to a relaxing lazy weekend!

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Sick of being Pregnant

I'm ready for the next step please! I just want this baby to be here (mainly so that it's not IN me...)

I'm not necessarily ready for the baby to be here, or ready for everything that that brings, but I am SO ready to be done with feeling like this. It's so unfair! I have about 2 weeks of feeling great, then I get super achey or super sick or super *insert word here* again.

I'm NOT looking forward to third trimester. I thought the second one was supposed to be great in comparison to the others? I mean, I guess compared to the first one, it hasn't been AS bad. At least I've had a week or two where I feel 'good', but, it's making me DREAD 3rd trimester... really bad.

I am SO dehydrated, but anything I drink just makes the acid reflux/sickness worse. It's a lose lose situation and I'm so done with it.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Upper Back Pains and Heart Burn/Acid Reflux

I went from feeling pretty good (just super tired) to feeling SUPER achey the last few days.

At first, it was just a little bit of heart burn, and it was O.K.... sort of. I mean, it was super annoying, and a bit painful, but nothing I couldn't handle.

Then, it got worse. Whenever I would lay down I would feel the stomach acid creep up into my throat, until eventually I could taste it (talk about nasty). So, I would sit up in hopes of it getting better, which at first worked, but the past two days, NOTHING has helped.

It's gotten to the point where I can taste and feel stomach acid almost all day in my throat/mouth. I've tried Tums, but they do NOTHING for me.

Now, to top it all off, I've got the WORST back pain I've ever had in my life. But, it's not my lower back (isn't that typical during pregnancy?), it's my upper back close to my spine. It hurts to breathe, SO BAD. What am I supposed to do? My next doctor's appointment isn't until the 28th. It seems SO FAR away.

Of course, something like this WOULD happen RIGHT after my doctor's appointment so the next one is almost a month away.

Also, my chest has started to hurt when I breathe. It feels super tight like I'm wearing a corset (but higher up by my upper ribs) and taking deep breaths is all that will SORT OF help.
Any suggestions?

Monday, March 5, 2012

Bug and In-Laws

Well, last week we had the opportunity to watch a sweet 6 year old dog named Bug.
She was a rat terrier, so she was just a little thing! She was so good! Ah, it's so different having a dog compared to a puppy!

She was so cute, and so loyal! Even though she didn't really know us! She stayed up half of the night guarding us, until we moved her into another room. She would just sit and growl a tiny bit when she heard a next door neighbor's door shut, or heard something outside. Every 30-45 minutes or so she would get up and walk around and check things out. It was so cute! But, a little bit crazy to see at the same time. It took Michael and I a little while before we realized what she was doing. She was such a tiny dog, but SO protective! CRAZY!


Then, this past weekend we had Michael's parents come visit. They came down for Uncle Denis's hearing and so they spend Friday evening with us, and most of Saturday. Friday we just played some games and spent some time together. Then, on Saturday we got went shopping (food shopping) and ate lunch together, and played some more games. And at one point, Michael and his dad went to Sam's club and Michael's parents bought us four new chairs for our table!

However, since Michael and his dad left, that left me ALONE with my mother-in-law. SCARY experience. Haha. Don't get me wrong, she is super nice, I'm just still not very comfortable around her. She and I are so different (even though Michael thinks we're similar in a lot of ways), and she's super shy... so it was really hard to keep a conversation going. What do you talk about with your Mother-in-Law? I DON'T KNOW! haha

Anyway, it actually ended up being a really good experience. It gave her the opportunity to get to know me a little better, and I her. It was still scary, and she still intimidates me a bit, but it was good to spend some time with her alone. We ended up playing Quiddler most of the time because they took FOREVER at the store! Haha, but it was worth it, because we got new chairs, and milkshakes :)



Anyway, here are some pictures of Bug! :)



Friday, March 2, 2012

Baby Girl

So, Michael and I have dedicated Thursday nights as our Date Night.

I know, Thursday is kind of a weird night to have a date night, usually it's Friday or Saturday or something, but Thursday is what we had decided from the beginning, even before we got married. Our first date was on Thursday and our first kiss was on a Thursday, and so we just like Thursdays. And also, we figured once we had kids, we could find a couple that had either Friday or Saturday as their date night, and we could babysit for each other.

Well, anyway, I digress. Michael and I have both been a bit stressed lately, and so we needed to just go out and have some fun spending time with each other, not having to really worry about anything. So, we had some Target gift cards (wedding presents) and decided it would be super fun to go pick out an outfit to bring little Emmalynn Rose Evanson (we're pretty confident that is going to be her name) home from the hospital in. Although, neither of us really know what kind of outfit that's supposed to be... so we bought two. :)

Here's to our first new baby outfits! (and the last for a while... until it gets closer anyway)
Michael has started to call our little girl Flutterbug, so we've decided we're going to be dressing her in Butterfly outfits (if we continue to find cute ones).

Also, after we move in April, I will be sorting through the baby clothes Mama Rankin gave to us and organizing them by size so we can have a better idea of what we'll need... even though I have NO IDEA what we need. I know onsies are good, right? and sleepers? heh, I suppose I'll find out soon enough!

Anyway, here are some terrible quality pictures to look at! haha
Oh, we also found a super cute stuffed animal for her... Michael really liked it. So, we got her a Giraffe that plays music and is super soft.







The yellow one is the one we bought thinking we could bring her home in that? It's got long sleeves and long pants and a onsie? The sleeves are nice though, because they've got those hand covering things... so the baby can't scratch itself. Also, it matches the Giraffe stuffed animal... it's got yellow Giraffes on it. The other outfit is the opposite, short sleeves with short or long pants. The green and purple one says "Daddy Loves Me", but the 'O' has a butterfly in the middle instead of the hole. And, the white short sleeve shirt is covered in butterflies.

Anyway, that was what Michael and I did last night. :)
It was nice not to have to worry about things and just spend time together picking out two cute outfits for our little girl. It was nice to not have to worry about how we are going to provide for a little one, but just get to spend a little time thinking about her instead.